Brain Vomit (Rant Explosion Ahead)

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I was supposed to upload a long status message last night, but I put it off, not because I thought it was useless, but it needed further polishing.

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A Sigh; A Scene; A Song

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Yesterday I took a break from checking papers. It’s prefinal season and so the academic pace is slow for this week at least, plus I wanted to just relax over the one-day holiday. I placed my still-bleeding red pen back in the case, set aside the papers, and opened Susan Cain’s book (Ahj recommended it, and with my current goal to revise my methods to accommodate the learning preferences of both introvs and extrovs in class, I was compelled to finish it the soonest — yeah, fucking ambitious).

I spent almost the entire day learning about the nature of introversion and its quirks (Ahj and I are introvs). I was impressed by the level of research the author has put in assembling her book, and so far (I’m at page 133) the data are balanced, with some interesting side anecdotes.

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Society wishes for us to smile all the time, to shake our hands firmly, to be congenial during parties, to be loud and fun and catchy.

[This makes me sad.]

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I’ve been on a “Bowie binge” for the past few weeks. I wasn’t really a fan back then (I discovered his music through Nirvana’s cover of “The Man Who Sold the World” and The Flight of the Conchords’ parody song “Bowie in Space” [which also lead me to check out “Space Oddity“]), but the news of his death got me curious, and so I went over to YouTube and randomly clicked the links to his songs.

I wasn’t instantly blown away. My first random pick, Ashes to Ashes, felt a little too 80s, a little too stuck in its zeitgeist — but it grew on me slowly, slowly, slowly. Suddenly I found myself clicking replay, humming along with it, looking for covers, tapping along its funky bass lines. I was fucking hooked.

And so I got lost in Bowie’s musical labyrinth (hehe, get it?). Some songs sounded okay (mostly the songs from the “Meta-Bowie” era), some took a little more time dive into (his “Spaceman” days), while some admittedly were hard to appreciate (late 90s/early 2000s).

His last album (EP?), Blackstar, is a solid bookend to his music. And I like how he paralleled the life the fictional Major Tom with his career. The image of the dead astronaut in his video provided a bittersweet closure. Genius.

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Two weeks ago I tapped some random lines on Twitter. It was about Major Tom inside his tin can, watching a flock of glowing space moths.

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See you later, Spaceman

Thyme Plies

Well, geez, it’s February already. So far, so good[?]

Just last month I wrote one short story and one pilot script. I think it’s okay, but I can do better. Social media and YouTube can get a little distracting, so I need to reinforce resistance against the two. This Feb I’ll try to accomplish at least the initial drafts of three stories.

I’m resisting the temptation to write poetry — but then I found a tiny loophole: poetry can also take the form of prose. And so I’ll write a series of poems [lyrical] essays and see what comes out. I hope it’s something interesting.

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Bits • Bits • Bits

I opened by drawer and realized that I have a stack of polo shirts still unused. I guess I’m just too comfortable with my current set (to the point that my students find my sense of fashion predictable). But hey, whatever works. Perhaps I’ll revise my lineup this second semester.

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I followed this snarky cat around campus. I walked slowly as he walked slowly. I stopped whenever he stopped. I tried to hide (or pretend to do something) when he looked at my direction. A number of students approached him. He made a defensive stance and hissed. The students carried on.

A staff noticed me following the cat. “Are you guarding him?” she asked.
“I, uh, nope!” I answered, then went away, then went back again to continue following the cat.

I gave up minutes later. The follow-me game became boring.

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The semester is almost over. Just in time — I’m almost out of steam. I can’t wait for sembreak, but I can still wait for second semester.

BLTX 2015

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So the members of our little group,  Meet-Every-Other-Weekend Club (MEOW), are excited to participate in this year’s Better Living Through Xerography (BLTX). Preparations are in place (I have a semi-manuscript of sorts) and we’re about to have a workshop some time this November. I just hope that we’re able to produce the materials on time.

This is also our chance to meet other small/indie publications — and perhaps get some advice in promoting and expanding the local zine scene.

Aaaaaaaaaaahhhh!

FreeStyle

I tried freewriting again last night. It’s been a while since my last writing exercise, and somehow getting my fingers reacquainted with the keyboard felt good, like a reunion, or a continuation of something vaguely familiar. Something has changed though: instead of the usual psychobabble on the surface, I had somehow formed two semi-introductions for possible stories — both noir-ish (maybe because I’ve just watched the second episode of True Detective [season 2]).

Upon [re]Reading Galeano’s Take on Sentipensante

Back when we were kids our perspective was quite literary.

Clouds were made of fluffy feathers which had parted from lost birds, lightning cracked the skies and broke the latter with thunder, the wind was an angel’s whisper, crayons were simply made from the earwax of gnomes, and death was nothing but the gentlest sleep.

But growing up and rules and adults and cars and portable phones came along, replacing our imagination with charts and facts and taxes, turning the literary into the literal. And we try to recover; we attempt to recall that wonder, that amazing spark which had fallen from our pockets when we climbed the mountain of adulthood.

And here we are: on top, looking at the somber sky, the lifeless clouds — nothing more.

Insomnia

I could not sleep,
so I asked the moon
to read me a story,

instead she bathed the night
sky with fireflies, spelling
out the thousand names

of Morpheus, with each letter
soothing my temple,
inviting me to wander

among lost dreams.
I could not sleep,
so I asked…